39 weeks 5 days with him

I never imagined post delivery would be this tiring! Quite a shock for me. Hehe.. I know I’m quite a noob and so naive as to expect an easy time caring for a newborn.

Anyway I have some time and energy now while he sleeps on my chest, I shall post about my pregnancy.

Alhamdulillah, my whole 10 months carrying my Son was relatively smooth. I thank Allah everyday cos I get to wake up every morning and still remain pregnant. The phobia after 2 miscarriages was crazy. 

Although it wasn’t a torturous journey (as in no puking, no headaches, no bad acid refluxes, managed to sleep easily, boleh jln lenggang kangkong lol), I couldn’t help worrying that I might miscarriage anytime. It was bad enough to miscarriage at 6 and 9 weeks. Can you imagine if losing baby after carrying for 35-40 weeks? Nauzubillah.. 

I didn’t have any symptoms, managed to fast the whole Ramadan (my dream since I got my period lol). Allah was really kind to me for making it easy to carry my Son after going through 2 miscarriages. (By the way, some of us were thinking maybe big sized people don’t really feel the symptoms cos the hormones are well distributed in our big bodies thus doesn’t affect our system causing the morning sickness? How? True or not?)

There were also many many other worries along the whole pregnancy. I was reminded a few times by friends to “husnuzon”. Thanks friends for being there and not judging me for being overly worried!

Despite my many worries, we managed to go for a babymoon on our 28th week. Decided around 25th week when we were more confident that baby is ok. I chose  week 28 cos I thought if anything were to happen, at least baby is already 7months and premature babies have a high chance of surviving. Alhamdulillah nothing bad happened. I didn’t know my MIL was super duper worried at home. Kesian my MIL. We enjoyed ourselves overseas but she was in SG popping Panadols till the day we return. (This happened during my labour too!)

Once again, due to my phobia.. I didn’t share my pregnancy with many. Direct family members knew about it after 9 weeks. Close friends at 3 months. Colleagues only realised when my bump appeared around 6 months? I think many more friends don’t even know I’m a Mom now cos I didn’t post anything on IG/FB during my pregnancy. Only posted our maternity shoot pictures after we gave birth (itupun restricted view for those who already know we’re pregnant hehe)

We took our free maternity shoot (from Friso) at 36th week. Totally love the pictures and the time spent with MrF at the studio goofing around before we had to be adults to our little Son. 

We were also quite lucky cos my Nephew is only 7 months older than our Son. So we received lotsa pass me down. A lot of items and in good quality some more! Many kind souls also gave us lotsa items. 

Alhamdulillah I’m really really thankful that MrF and I have been given the chance to go through this journey together. Now when it’s quite tough to manage a newborn, I keep reminding myself to push through for the baby. It’s not easy to reach this stage and I should try my best to grumble less about the no sleep. Lol.

To everyone who’s TTC-ing or have gone through miscarriages, I wish for a smooth journey for you. Remember you’re not alone and to always pray and doa a lot! 

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Our journey as papa and mama F

Everyone has their own pregnancy story and here’s ours:

We got married on 28 Mar 2015 but we didn’t try getting pregnant immediately. We wanted a little bit of “us time” first. We started trying after Raya and alhamdulillah it was easy for us to get pregnant. Unfortunately, as easy as it was for us to get pregnant, it was also as easy for us to lose the baby (at 6 weeks).

We were told to rest a month before trying to get pregnant again and so we did. Sometime in Nov 2015, we got pregnant again. This time around we were more careful but once again the happy news was short lived. Another miscarriage (at 9 weeks)!! 

We found out that it’s common (relatively). 25% of women experience miscarriages. We didn’t know it was quite a high statistics, but… of cos no one wants to fall into the 25%. 

At that moment, it was really a test of our faith, patience and everything else. 

I was really eager to get pregnant cos I wanted to have my first birth before turning the age of 30 (tulah siapa suruh kawin lambat kan).

After the 2 miscarriages and going through lotsa drama in our marriage life, I learnt to let go and not be so OCD with my life plans. We can plan all we want but I needed to be reminded that Allah yang menentukan, so I shouldn’t be all panicky cos my life wasn’t going the way I wanted. 

I guess it happened so that we have more time to prepare ourselves and learn to work/communicate with each other better before having a junior to care for. We spent all our free time together by going on trips and dates.

Doc asked us to relax for 3 months before trying again. During the difficult period, I’m quite thankful there’s family and friends who supported and helped us.

Anyway fast forward to 2016, we got pregnant for the third time and this time around I kept telling myself to relax and don’t put any pressure on myself. Bosses were also kind to me and gave me less outdoor work during the first trimester. 

I kept telling myself – If it’s meant to be, it’ll be. So don’t fret so much over it.

I made sure I was in the best of moods 95% of the time, telling myself I cannot argue with anyone. MrF and I didn’t argue at all for the whole pregnancy (okla probably once je). That was how carefree I was (cos usually I’m the one who start the argument obviously lol).

I avoided caffeine, instant noodles and fast foods the whole time (including the 3 months of waiting time. Oh MrF also avoided what I avoided, just to be fair cos he’s contributing the other half of baby’s genes kan..) I also tried 2 different tukang uruts during the 3 months wait. One was super talkative but she gave good insight about baby making hehehe 

Alhamdulillah with great hardship there’ll be ease [94:5] we were given the chance to be parents this time around. I guess the phrase “third time’s a charm” applies to us? 

And so.. With great happiness, we are therefore announcing that our rainbow baby is here! We have safely given birth to a healthy baby boy on 16 Jan πŸ‘ΆπŸ» 

Moga-moga anak ini menambahkan lagi kebahagian dalam keluarga kami, membesar menjadi anak yang soleh dengan akhlak dan kesihatan yang baik. Amin!

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Alhamdulillah, we have reached our 1 year mark! 

Throughout this whole year, we definitely went thru some good and bad times together. Good times we totally did it together, but for the bad ones, sometimes I needed a lil reminder and a nudge to stand as one and not against each other.

I can say MrF is the better one. He has been kind and patient to his dear rebellious wife. I guess for the first year of marriage, the adrenaline rush kept us busy? So many things to get used to. New homes, new schedules, new family members, new problems to solve, new flaws we’re noticing, new cute moments we’re experiencing, new pinggan to campak and so on. Hehe. We’ve learnt a lot about each other and from each other. No doubt we’ll continue to do just this in every year of our marriage.

I don’t want to be cliche and say communications is the most important thing in a marriage. Okla not because I don’t want to be cliche, that’s important but what really stands out for me is this:

If you do things for Allah, it will never go wrong. Religion keeps us going and makes us do the right thing. This also applies to a marriage. 

So.. If you love for Allah, the love will last till Jannah. 

To many more good years ahead! Aamiin 😘

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Roti paun

I never thought I could make my own bread. Always heard that I need to knead the dough by hand for a long long time for it to be soft (I imagined an hour long). Cos I’m very the lazy, I didn’t want to do something which requires such a long kneading process. Just found out that I can actually use a normal flour mixer to help me knead. 

And so…Cos we finally got my mom’s Kenwood fixed, and was recently inspired by the MIL when I saw her making her own bread for the family, I decided to give it a shot. Googled and watched a lot of YouTube videos to understand how it’s done. Oh jakun me also just saw at Courts that there’s such a thing as a bread maker machine. Perhaps next time if this gets really serious..
Anyways, here’s my baking product! Tada! 

Meh kasi upclose picture of how soft the roti is hehe (this one second batch using gelatinised method instead)


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Pre-Marriage Course

Was just wondering if anyone saw an advert saying that there’s a pre-marriage course that cost $150 PER COUPLE? Supposedly some promotion going on. 

I thought I saw something like that on fb 2 days ago, but can’t seem to find it now. Trying to keep a lookout for my sis and SILs.  

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More Happy Togs goodies

Started the year with unbelievable unexpected super duper long leave. Despite things not going as planned, I definitely enjoyed myself and had so much me time. What we learnt is to redha and believe that things will work out when Allah swt wants it to.

Anyways on Happy Togs news, we brought in more cotton tops with more designs!

Feast your eyes, ladies!

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Happy Togs

Our little (business) baby is reaching 1000 likes! Come on, come on! Jiayou!

It’s kinda hard to juggle online business with a day job, but alhamdulillah it’s working out ok so far. Reski trickling in whenever Allah decides and customers have been quite nice so far. We only came across 2-3 people who wanted to cheat us, we’re quite surprised that the number is small (org tak tipu byk comment eh, cari nahas je lol) and we had offers from banks to finance us? (Business kecik2 je..) Haha.

For those who haven’t visited our fb page, here’s what we’re selling at the moment:

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